iwant2die

Can you feel its presence I can Can you feel it run down your spine I can Can you see it staring at you I can Can you see it waiting for you I can Can you hear it whisper your name I can Can you hear it beckon you near I can Can you, do you know what it is It's not a pretty thing It's my pain telling you that it's over As my blood runs away I hear it say 'It is so close It is so near This is the end And the end is here '

My head is spinning round and round I cannot see The pain is deep inside of me Why is this so I do not know Did I choose the wrong road Was I supposed to be An angel under a golden tree And not the devil I see Am I meant to be in God's loving arms Instead of the Devil's cold charms Could I change my side Or what that be a lie Of what I feel In this cold heart of mine I will never know now For it is too late But I leave this world with my answer For death is my antidote

As the blade cuts through my soft skin It starts to sting As blood starts to fall I ask for more More freedom With the blood leaving my body I head for my room I lay on my bed And hear my mothers faint scream she sees the blood And heads for my room I open my eyes i'm not where I'm supposed to be I'm in hospital With my mother next to me As I start to cry My mother asks me why But I do not reply I came home today She hasn't left my side Heres my chance. she's in the shower Gone for at least half an hour As the blade cuts through my soft skin This time I've made sure it's the end

I cut for a reason i cut because i can i cut to feel the pain the pain comes and goes So I cut again this pain i feel is such a warm feeling it keeps me safe at night one day i will lay down to rest for it is the final test.

My blood runs free For all to see See the pain That  you gave me.

Now i sit in the corner I ask myself 2 questions. Why and how we got this far. First you hit, Then you shout. When i wake up once more I pled with god 'OH please let it end' A week goes by Hes at it again. This time i fight back I lose again. God will not help me I turn to satin instead I will not let him kill me He will not be my end I will end it 4 him With this bullet through my head.  

To be or not to be, That is the question. To live or to die, That is the question. But what is the answer. Would it be wrong, To think of only me. Would it be right, To think of only you. Would it be better, To think of only us. We shall never know, 4 you left without me. Because u did not care 4 me, Because u did not love me. I begin to cry, As the car leaves my sight. I think where will i go, Should i do whats right.

I take this blade And dig it in deep It begins to bleed Poeple start to cheer They are so happy Adn all i feel is Sadness, sorrow for what i have done I sit and wonder why it is so For us as humans to suvive We must kill a part of us The tree that once stood so tall Is now on the forrest floor As it sit there I hear it's screams It screams for its life There it lays There it stays There it bleeds For that tree will never live again

I hear the thunder talk to me The rain urging me on And the lighting showing the way home These things were my friends The only ones i to have They were the vocies in my head The only ones i care to hear When i look for you You weren't there Instead i found my sorrow And my drowning tears As the vocies slowly faded out A farmilar feeling washed over me That feeling was FEAR My friends had left me Just as you did But that pain was a feeling i had not more So with the noose tight on my neck And blood dripping on the floor i let the darkness swollow me whole once more

I would say she is beautiful She has full candy lips She has a floorless face Angelic as the best The best body, not fat nor skinnny But others do all they can to hurt her To bring her down I would show her everyday Just how perfected she is IF SHE WERE HERE!!! How could i let her down so, How could i let her fall? The other won this time They hurt her beond repair As i stand over her coffin Its like a dream I still see her smiling at me But how can that be? I say my final goodbye As tears stream down my face Now i stand in front of her family And say her final grace And as read the last words of her letter to m